Lucid Gates Trip Report- 3g

Un Bacio a Mezzanotte

Hello my Friends

As someone who is well versed in psychedelics from over the years, all I must say is WOW. I have NEVER had an experience like the report I am about to share. I am an artist that has done large trips 5-7g a lot in my lifetime.

First, some setting. I have been dealing with PTSD from the loss of my sister from a few years ago, and have dealt with a lot of hardships in life that have formed who I am. Recently, I have been dealing with some bad neck vertebrae issues and chronic pain and have been going 5 times a week to a pain clinic doing anything and everything I can to make things manageable. My doctors also know that I use mushrooms in low doses frequently to combat my pain as it is the only thing that helps. I usually eat Psilocybe Natalensis for reference.

So yesterday my wife and I was going in for a follow up on an extensive MRI on my full spine. We came to find out i not only have 3 herniated discs, narrowing vertebrae and all sorts of things cause issues; but recently doctors have been thinking I had fibromyalgia. The diagnosis came in yesterday that they believe it to be polymyalgia rheumatica. So now they are wanting to do some extensive CT scans and get me into a Rheumatologists.

Being diagnosed with a chronic pain disease affected me greatly. We plan to have kids before long and the thought of being a dad that is constantly fighting his pain messed with me a lot. I didn’t want to become an illness in front of our children someday.

So here is where things get interesting. I work for a mycology company in Colorado and we are planning to enter some strains into a potency contest. Here recently I have been growing a lot of the strain “Lucid Gates” which I have been loving to grow, but nobody we knew had really tried it yet. I decided that I wanted to fully combat my diagnosis and ask why I constantly hurt. Why was I put here to be in pain? How can I find self peace when turmoil is all around my joints and bones?

I needed answers. So I asked and received I tell you.

I take 3 grams straight. I personally prefer the full experience so I can go through the levels of ego loss fully. The first 20 minutes we had “Don’t mess with the Zohan” on. Very funny, but I realized this isn’t what was meant for me. I turned it off and proceeded to sit for another 20 minutes eyes fully closed. Meditating and listening to our playlist I love so much.

I start to feel the come up onsetting over me. I feel this lightness first. My body all the sudden became a feather and I felt the mushrooms start to take way. Then the ego perceptions started to hit.

First I became very hot. I felt so much guilt and shame for my past. Missing my sister. I apologized to my sober wife over and over and told her how I loved her so much.

Then the stomach. Oh boy the stomach. Now for me I am weird. I PREFER stomach issues as it grounds me to what is important. The bardo that causes nausea is something too many people try to hide from. I told my wife my stomach was hurting. She was worried but I kept saying

“This is how mushrooms are supposed to be.”

I went to the bathroom that was filled with color from our salt lamp nightlight in the corner. I go to the toilet and everything was on a wave. I held onto the sink and bathtub on opposite side of the room the prevent from blasting off too hard. The g forces started to get SO SO STRONG.

The look of the toilet water was too much tho and was making me trip harder. I decided to go to the living room to get a new scenario and asked for a bucket. All the sudden, I start talking to my wife about really deep things in our life that I needed to get out there. She heard me so well because I was so vulnerable and just telling her my raw emotions. I love her so much.

The visuals of melting walls and vibrants colors started to grow in the room as my stomach worsened. I watched turn and out of nowhere grabbed the bucket. Every single time I got sick, the visuals would get SO MUCH STRONGER. it was so insane. Color explosions everywhere, the world warping and turning for me so much. I needed to find a grounding. I look at my wife as I cried and let my ego melt away.

I look at my blissful wife beautiful smile as I held onto the world almost ripping off the arm of the loveseat, watching around her head as the most VIBRANT color explosions kept happening over and over again. This was unlike ANYTHING i have ever seen tripping. It was so intense I loved every second, and I started to get even more and more high as this goes on.

Surely I think, this is the peak no? Hell no… I think I had 5 different points of peaking throughout this trip. After the visuals around my wife, I watched as the wall was melting so much and color explosions filled the room, my wife asked what i was doing and I was turning my head squinting trying to “Turn down the visuals cause it was so intense.”

All the sudden I had to pee. The wife helped me to the bathroom and all the sudden while peeing, I had the most insane fucking visual explosions ever. My wife had to catch me as I almost fell to the ground. I told her every-time i would be it felt like a psilocin attack that was so amazingly crazy.

My wife helps me back to the loveseat, I ended up puking again and had the most insane visuals. Now this gets very weird from here. Something I deal with with a chronic pain disease is coming back into the reality of pain. I was tripping so hard and all the sudden grab my face where i get bad pain usually and say to my wife;

“Oh Im back now.” or so I thought.

The feeling of pain bringing me back to a reality where i just wanted to feel okay made no sense to me. I cried so so hard. My wife tried to comfort me as I just embraced my pain. I asked the entheogenic spirits of mushrooms;

“Why do I hurt like this. How do I find peace within this?”

And no fucking lie goosebumps as I type this I just hear a voice of a female entity. She sounded egyptian. I couldn’t see her but could see her face shadow in the dark of my mind. She comforted me by not explaining. She said to me.

“Im sorry you hurt like this my child.” and to have this entity tell me that this wasn’t what was intended for my life, its just part of the mortal world. I felt as mortality became a reality and I just felt existence. I cried even harder as I felt this feeling of comfort and love come over my pain. Still fully there, but it was just okay to feel now.

My wife had been stressed about me crying and wanted to try and calm me down. She decided to play one of our favorite movies tripping “Luca” which I HIGHLY recommend to anyone. The movie was way too intense to watch, but the beginning of the movie starts with a song from 1950 italy.

Please look up “Un Bacio a Mezzanotte- by Quartetto Cetra”

This song turns on as I am hold my face in the weirdest way just melting and crying into pain. and I just stop all of the sudden. I felt this song in a different way than normal. I knew this song from a somewhere.

I swear on my life on this part. All of the sudden as this song plays, I am fully transported like a dmt trip to another world of black and white. I was sitting in a tub as this song plays. I could hear small explosions in the background of what I would think was an old war time. Whoever I was, I was smoking a cigarette looking at the eiffel tower through the window. The walls were all melting around me in this vision and I could tell that I was also tripping in this vision too. This isn’t the first time I have had full blown interplanetary travel experiences, but never this intense. I can still see every aspect of the entire scene so vividly. I plan to paint this in my old Van Gogh style soon.

After this I started to come down and felt so amazing. It had been 5 hours since I started and I was tripping so hard still. I sat and thought about the amazing wonders I saw and remembered what made me an artist before my ego took over my life. I talked with so many of my friends and my wife of so many things I learned and encountered. How to take life so much less serious again. And most important I cried for about an hour as I thanked my sister for the chance that she has given me at another life.

This trip has been something of another world. I was up till 5am started tripping at 6pm and was still extremely high. Even now as I type this I am getting the weirdest visuals!

Well this is my crazy fucking trip. I love you all and hope you all have a good day. Mush love!